the best i ever had...

Its October 20 2007 today, there are 3 days left before my 20th birthday. Wow it’s my last days of being in the bracket of the so-called “teens”. Well is that really the reason why I really felt empty and sad inside me. It seems im not the old person who seems to be a happy go lucky and a very jolly person. Maybe people around me think that im still the used to be “old mitchie who seems to laugh in every circumstance that comes along her life”. As that people might also think that I can handle everything on my own whether it can be a love problem, school difficulties and other big challenges comes across my life.

I don’t really know what is the reason behind I bond all day with my ate and kuya with her gf. I really enjoyed going to greenhills, Shopping at mega, dining at “pizzeria volare” and go over looking at cloud nine in antipolo. Doing all this things with out thinking of any occasion for the day. I really really enjoyed this day too sad I didn’t bring my phone with me so I’m not able to take some photos that I can remember through the last days of my teen age years I’ve been with the two of the most important people in my life. My siblings (ate gala tayo? Kuya may bagay sayo polo doon!), sponsors who gave me money when I don’t have any, comedian who seems to cheer me up when I’m down, supporters who seems to be always at my back cheering out loud that I can fulfill all my dreams so I must hold on to it, partner in crime, shock absorbers when I am in bad mood, crying shoulders and best friends who I can always lean on and ask for a helping hand.

Ate michelle and kuya bryan… these are the two people that I cant live without. Honestly I don’t know my self without them. I don’t know if I can still smile through all my tears without this two. If I can still be the happy go lucky, energetic, survivor and the smiling mitchie every time even thou her heart screams in pain.

Just to be exact its been 19 years, 11 months and 20 days that I am with them… laughing with each other, sharing stories with one other, fighting for small things but after an hour we still talk with one another and back again to our funny stories… laughing and laughing till our stomach hurts.

So if ever we might need to separate… who do you think will I be without them… in simple words incomplete….

“God I know your up there… and listing to me…. I am very thankful that I have a great family loving parents and supportive siblings… just please keep us away from harm and keep us together.” Coz I will be nobody without them…

Tears

You’ve hurt me in so many ways
But you are forgiven as always
It’s been a long time
Since the last time
We saw each other’s smile

For all these years
You’re the reason of these tears
But every time
These tears fall
Your there to wipe them all

As always we try
To say goodbye
Sadness fills our hearts
Ending up in coming back
In each others arms

Still unknown feeling began
As I try to be strong
Letting my self to fight in this feeling
Coz’ love is the reason
Why I’m still hoping, longing and loving…

unforgetable smoke

As this 2007 approach our lives gone through a big change that me and my family didn't expect. Our house and everything in it was gutted by fire.

The fire incident happed last February 13 it was really hard to accept that I cannot live my life again like the way I live yesterday. As the seven months pass bad memories are still fresh and we are still in the stage of the adjusting period. Maybe it was really meant to be all we should do is accept that fact. I know and I still believe that God will never give us trials that we cannot pass through. Maybe it was just his way to guide us for a better future because everything happens for a reason.

blog!!

Well its my first post here on blogspot. Actually I am really fond of writing but I guess writing it self doesn't like me at all hehehe… unlike the people around me I’m not really as good as them in terms of writing abilities so please bear with me...